I love normal

Dear friends

It was an interesting week….

It seems that we value our daily routine when it is suddenly gets interrupted.

I was talking to a friend who was thrilled to feel normal again, after experiencing a challenging week….I love normal, she said.

When our “normal life” all of a sudden  changes, we may feel a loss of control.

Then the old, uninvited fear creeps in and we may fall in its captivity.

I felt this fear this week… with what if… and who will I be…

Like Rosemerry Wahtola Trommer in her Poem ‘Hallo fear’

“I took a deep breath,

not knowing how to respond,

then stepped into my life,

determined to live into the answer.”

Hello, Fear

There I was, making tea in my kitchen,
when fear hit me like a school bus.
I didn’t need a scientist or therapist
to tell me it hurt.
I screamed: Arghh! I shouted: No!
But after smashing into me,
fear just opened the folding glass door
of the bus, yanked me on,
then plopped me into a green vinyl seat.
I’m scared, I said.
Yeah, fear said. ’Cause I’m scary.
Yeah, I squealed, as the bus careened
through the couch, through
my bedroom, through the splintering
dining room table.
What if I lose everything? I said to fear.
Yeah, said fear, what if you do?
And who will I be when everything changes?
Yeah, said fear, who will you be?
Then he opened the door
and shoved me off the bus
and I was standing again beside
the familiar green counter,
tea cup in hand, not a drop spilled.
Who will you be? he shouted
from the half open window.
I took a deep breath,
not knowing how to respond,
then stepped into my life,
determined to live into the answer.